Wednesday, March 31, 2010
your lies keep coming back to haunt me. I cannot let this go.
{ 4:19 AM }
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Weekday apprehension. the torment begins
{ 8:40 AM }
Second guessing e v e r y t h i n g
Saturday, March 27, 2010
An end to another hellish week. The start of another hellish one....?
I get all jittery and nervous every Sunday because weekdays are filled with trauma, uncertainty and bad bad bad feelings. nth good ever comes out of mondays tuesdays weds and/or thursdays.
Then the weekend comes and it gets better coz i have you by my side. sigh. but still.
Sucks. that i can't unknow what i alreayd know.
{ 12:40 PM }
All my bags are packed i'm ready to go
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Every day is hell. Getting through each day is a torture. My mood hinges on your behavior, which is nothing but erratic. One day you're nice and the next you want to have nothing to do with me. You say you need me but i dont see how. You dont tell me anything you dont come to me for anything. I keep asking myself what i'm doing here. I no longer feel the same way as i do. I can only be so selfless with you so selfish. I want to start looking out for myself. I dont want to rely on you anymore. I feel as though my life is at your mercy and i wnt have it. Not anymore. I want to take control of my life. I dont need you. anymore.
Last night was epic. There were so many things wrong with it i dont even know where to start.
you make me see you in a different light,
you Disappoint me.
I think i have done a mighty fine job taking all the shit you have thrown at me. I gave it my all. I no longer have the strength to carry on. if pushing me away is your plan thn well u've succeeded. The next time you walk away i'm not gonna hold you back.
arghauhwiuerhjdfkdcniweh
And everything's a lie. Your stupid promises. You went back on them. I no longer trust your promises. I no longer trust that i'm safe with you. "Trust me " lol omg tt was EPIC. E.P.I.C
i still mean what i said. I wnt give up on you. probably not as friends but definately in heart and in mind. Cant let you do this to me anymore. I keep telling myself that maybe i ought to be more unstanding. Dont know what the fuck is wrong but maybe just MAYBE i ought to be less hard on you. Then i realised that no matter how awful one feels, one should
never take it out on anybody. You make me feel like a thorn in ur A-hole. Just talking to me on the fone is such a god damn chore. So if u have issues thats fine, and if u need me i'm here. BUT the thing is, you dont?! lol. all you do is push me away. so srsly, what the FUCK am i doing here. lol
{ 12:14 AM }
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
argh. why do
people like to lie to me. Even if you do, can u
PLEASE Do it with more...sophistication? its terribly insulting. Just because i went along with it doesnt mean you've succeeded in the bluff.
I know. Dumb fucks. fucking pissed off.
{ 5:22 AM }
Two weeks and we had caught on fire
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Wave good bye
To what you were
The rules have changed
the lines begin to blur
She makes you hard
It comes on strong
You finally found
the place where you belong
Keeps on and on
She will not let you go
Keeps on and on
This time I'm not coming back
{ 2:55 AM }
Friday, March 12, 2010
I think male group dynamics is the dumbest thing ever. Its the advantage of the weaker. The pathetic ones that dont have a fucking life. so they work the group think to their advantage, to bring their
bros down to the same pathetic level as them. No one loses, though. They're all satisfied. They are miserable. but hey, at least they have each other. one for all, all for one. if one of them is sad lonely and depressed. Everybody ough to be like tt too.
yes. i'm
fucking biased.
{ 3:39 AM }
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
grossly unhappy and constricted.
{ 10:43 PM }
OK i had a major epic fail moment last night. i am stronger than this. deep breaths.
{ 4:47 AM }
Friday, March 05, 2010
was happy for a moment. only for a moment.
{ 11:15 AM }
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
*Neversweet 'no love ' mommys-lil-monster.blogspot.com says:
by the time u reply the sun rise alr
Cotton Teeth says:
lol
i playing some stupid game
u wanna play
telemarketing one
LOl
http://games.adultswim.com/fantasy-telemarketer-puzzle-online-game.html
fun
*Neversweet 'no love ' mommys-lil-monster.blogspot.com says:
NO
fantasy telemarketer puzzle
wow
so interesting
Cotton Teeth says:
LOL
*Neversweet 'no love ' mommys-lil-monster.blogspot.com says:
lol
Cotton Teeth says:
must try to sell products
*Neversweet 'no love ' mommys-lil-monster.blogspot.com says:
WOW! REALLY?
Cotton Teeth says:
YA!!!
{ 3:03 AM }
Get out
Monday, March 01, 2010
out the door, out the door, you've become an intolerable bore
{ 8:15 AM }
