Just came back from meeting clement not too long ago. Back in the old days he was always there to listen to my troubles and shit. that boy made me laugh the moment i saw him. <3 god i miss the guys. i miss my friends. i need to get out more. i need to stop shutting myself up.

{ 12:25 PM }

i'm so confused. I dont how what to say i dont know how to act.
{ 5:54 AM }

I did surprisingly well for my stats assignment and quiz. Not awesome but i surpassed by expectation. I guess this is the encouragement that i need. I am motivated.
{ 7:44 PM }

Its becoming increasingly obvious.
{ 9:54 AM }

Feel like i'm fighting a losing better. Always believed in not gg against the grain but somehow i feel like fighting. somehow i think there's something worth pushing for. Im starting to think that even if there is, its no longer in my hands anymore. It seems like nothing i do will ever be enough. nothing i do will change you. You have put a label on me and you wont view me in any other light. How do i convince you that i'm really trying. If only you could take a trip in my head. O well, no room for lamentations. I gave my best and should you fail to recognize them thn i shudnt blame myself. i shouldnt take it out on myself when the person behind the wheel is you. I tried.

Beaten down again. I belong to them.

I've begun hurting myself- something i have not done, to such a large degree, to myself for a long time. I feel rotten. The modos operandi for now is that i suck. i suck. i suck. I suck.
{ 1:15 PM }

w called me agn sigh
{ 5:47 PM }

For all the years tt ive known him, I think this is the first time i'm hearing willy cry. ayorr. stop crying laahhh.
{ 11:36 AM }

There's something about Bjork tt makes me want to sway like tall grass or jiggle around like an amoeba.
{ 11:44 AM }

i had the best valentines day of my life. yon really made my heart melt. :3

I wonder why i tend to get caught in situations like these. I do not think she is worth it. i never thought she deserved him. Its not that i dont want w to be happy. i do. but not with her. Even if he doesnt think so, just how much are can he possibly give without getting anything back in return? There will come a time when his efforts run dry. i guess love is blind.

I shant intervene in kiddish affairs. Watching the entire thing from a third person's perespective was enough to warrant a non-intervention. There is nothing to fight for. Even though i was mildly incensed. Felt like shit but i thought he deserved to know. yes, on cny and vals. like you said, u have to hurt to heal.

on a brighter note, i have been making full use of the term break to SLEEP. yes. to the extent of FORCING myself to sleep a little ( >1 hr) longer. oooh. this reminds me of the dream i just had. i dreamt of a plane ( Tiger Airways) parked in the middle of VIVO about to explode and i was dead close to it. i could see the boiling amber. thn i dream of a dozen of pythons. and a really nice shower room. hahahaha. D'ohhh
{ 11:25 AM }

i am weak i cannot change. you'll never change ur impression of me. it will never be enough.
{ 5:56 AM }

Clubbing last night was an epic fail. Boring + drama + 2 merlions. hmm at least i got to witness a nasty catfight?

The more i think about it, the more i believe that reason is dehumanizing. It leads us away from our instincts..being civilised. laughs. Restraint restraint.
{ 3:23 AM }

I am dispicable
{ 5:40 AM }

Love is not enough

ps. i want to attend a music festival in europe. those mad insane one with large towerring mushrooms.
{ 11:55 PM }

i miss you. we shud hang out soon (:
{ 12:40 AM }

There are bullet holes where compassion used to be

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