*hurt*
mel slap my boobs. figurative

i feel as though i'm on a look-good waiter romp. first the ban mian guy, thn todae it was the bali thai one. haha.. i prefer the latter. he looks...nicer. 3/4 of the dishes were spicey..too spicy for my taste. they served this mango salad first , sprinkled with red chilli padi, nuts and pepper. thn came the curryfish , tom yam and such. baH. i got a little upset in the midst

u see, my dad was coming later and my mother was so jittery the whole time. she kept asking if he arrived. it got a little... irritating. and when i striked a conversation with her, her attention would deviate to the surrounding. either that or in deep thot. -rolls eyes- i shut myself and 'insulged' in spice .

i just thot of the unsigned report card. hais.
stupid girl.
i'll show it to her tmr.
{ 11:35 PM }

my cousin has a girlfriend named Melissa. and she's... HUGE. Considering his dashing good looks.. thats a rather.. disappointing catch. but . i understand . she seems pretty nice. lol. like duh . if she beared her soul and flickered her poison tongue after 5 mins of aquaintance. thn.. he must be blind . she has a nice voice . and she goes to the gym . i wanted to ask if she had a personal trainer . and i embarassed myself again . i think i gave her the impression i was this pseudo demure bimbo. ( i tripped on the 3 inch steps n screamed , had the elevator close on me ) . anyhow, my mother brought me there for a reason. she took my cuz's report book out and even tho i refused to look at it. she read alot his record of As . i felt demoralised, angsty , insulted . and there she was , taking pleasure in my gloom. wahtever . upon mentioning of mel's name, my aunt lit up. she went like ' ahh ahh . thats the one i've been telling u about!" to that girl. hmmm.. but i left before ryan came back. -shrug-



And....for no rhyme or reason, i keep peeing . every like hour or go. so damn irritating.

I was flipping through my old diary a while ago and chanced upon the very last entry ; it was the first time i met mark. hahahah so stupid . funnie. it tickkled my funny bone, the whole writing style . the page was so replete with exclamation marks. ( not about how cute he was mind u) . Tho i like the idea of a solid tangible diary, having an online one is undoubtly wiser with less effort. imagine penning pages a night about my day/ thoughts! i guess, it boils down to having a sense of security.
{ 11:37 PM }

okays. even tho i'm chatting with a bunch people, i'm adamant on writing an entry , despite not having any thots to pen down cephy i used the toilet in raffles hotel!! nyhahahaha. okays. after 10 mins, the furthest i've gone is a pethetic two lines. anyways, the experiance was very awe inspiring. cos its been long since i've done n e thing like that. i've nv been to Raffles Hotel. :( my dad has nv brought me there. And the whole layout seems stuck in the past, i love it. and the rows of Swarovski and LV.. wahh. but. there wasnt much to wah about the toilet la. just that, nigger mother dunno how to use the tap. and he screwed the knob off. hahahahahahah. so funnies!!

And... i've been eating Mac for 2 days straight. ii'm beginning to feel like the local lab rat for supersize me . bah. next thing i know, i'll be jogigng across the street at 4 in the morn to get myself a burger like bill clinton. wait. Mac doesnt oepn at 4 in the morn.


whats your favourite super hero?
i like spiderman!
{ 10:36 PM }

sighh. my plans to rot have once again been thwarted. i woke up at 8 in the morning had my b.f thn plonked back to dreamoworld cuz my tutor was out partying all night ( in my rekoning). I found the whole idea bout waking up just to have my b.f was rather preposterous. i even laughed at myself. had a series of dreams after that, totally senseless. Three hours later, my mom woke me up for lunch . 30 mins after lunch, we got into another argument which ended at an impasse. At that pont in time, i wanted nothing but the comfort of my room..but thn.. i had agreed to go shopping with her. aYe.

so i did. with my cousin and my newphew. he's ooooberrrly cute . and annoying . and particular . and . spoilt. he kept running around and my cuz kept yelling at him. nyahahahaha. but my mood lightened once i saw him. babies. TSK. i feel bad for him sometimes, everyone keeps playing with his lil brother that he gets totally ignored. i noticed. like how all my relatives surround the new born while he's at the back screaming and jumping only to receive their ignorance. all . but mine. :D:D:D i'm sucha nice person.

so YaA.. spent the afternoon shopping at paragon, walking in and out of shops looking like a fucking zombie. credits to my wan expression and 'horrible eye makeup. i look so dead i love it. Oh. i was watching viva la bam a while ago, he got his eyes done by Hank from some band whose name is too weird to rmb. very nice. they used paint. My cuz got a $108 top, overpriced. for some crumbled frabic. lols. and she denounced me for browsing thru miss sixtey. stupid. at least. i didnt get em. i wanted to tho. and blush! bras cost $200 ++ lololol. i find that very funnie. so much for having that. and marks n spencer sells this verh aunty top at $99. lololol. hilarious. my cuz said she cud get it for 1/4 of e price at people's park. i laughed. i love jest! n e ways, yeah.

ohh. PCK musical is boring, come in after teh 15 min break. the 2nd part more drama. One thing i hate about such events are teh thirteen year olds dressed up tryna look Rich and refined. -spits - eyesore. really. and i accidentally cussed in dialect in front of my mother. -shrug- she acted like she didnt hear it. and i acted like i didnt sae it.
{ 4:25 PM }

why why why cheryl whyyyy do u fall for the stupid onessssssss. okay, maybe not stupid but the unusual ones. i always get teh weird ones. why cant i meet someone normal ? wait. that'll be too boring (: SigGhhs. i shall spend the next few weeks airing my grievances and hurl acriminous insults at that lucky b*tch. - S U L K -
but he' owns eloquent charm like no other. grinned myself silly when i saw his name on one of them exam papers.. nyhahahaha. *slaps myself* i am trying my best to expunge this inane infatuation. told pedo and watched him laugh himself silly..after which endured this stupid racist joke

i dreamt of the end of the world.(again) and this time, i cud fly! eh. no. i think i dreamt of flying before. but this time, the ground was melting and sinking into the abyss. like...like wax. and i had this flying mechanism. i remembered the haste that was upon me, yet i still found time to put on some cherry gloss before taking off. LoL. and then pei yi chased me for Reader's digest subcription fees, which if i'm not mistaken was cost $42. (dream). funnie!
{ 10:28 PM }

since i'm viewing my own blog i thot i'd update.

Been going out alot lately, four days inna row. man. now i just wanna spend a languid afternoon in my room. doing absolutely nothing. which is clearly impossible, since i'm not brain dead. NO I'M NOT.

i quarelled with my mother 2 hours ago. about some stupid nail polish remover. i didnt really yell back cos i know it was out of concern. :) There was a moment when she blabbered abt respect and how the loud music that i play has coercd me into yelling back at her, when she was the one who yelled at me first. -chides- okok. childish childish.

i'm so proud of myself. i completed 2 ch of revision. but i found myself stummed by english. big reality check there. Msged mel midway and found myself laughing so hard my tummy crammed. really crammed. she's just so blur. DAhmit. inordinately embarrassing. i bit my tongue so hard it almost bled.

oooh..i almost forgot. blackie and i had lunch, well. onli backie. hahahaha. at bk. we sat beside this bunch of rowdky sporty farts whu were evidently bitching. they sneered and defamed this girl named cheryl. hurt :( felt as tho they were sniggering in front of me. impossible. i dont know them. i dont have a problem with pretencious bitching but from their looks, really cannot make it. who are they to call others ugly and sluttly when they are themselves? just aint right.!

i didnt know they Durex manufactured vibrating condoms. wait..i'm not sur of the brand. but i'm curious to find out how it words. how can it vibrate?!?!?!? there cant be a battery inside..or does it work on solar engery..wait cant be. or heat. yeah..heat. but. its onli rubber. i'm curious. can someone buy it and let me experiment with one. Imagine ... hahahahah. cannot cannot. too grotesque. *Does that finger thing* LOLS

finally got my belated birthday present. clever boy, ripped e price tag off. i wud have forgotten.
{ 11:38 PM }

i'm GOLDEN BROWN; in the days to come. presently, i'm .. just red . i'm confused. the tanning lotion specified : bronze. red doesnt fit in bronze. only rust. but hey, at least i'm not black/grey. -chuckles -

our day started off on the beach. but it got so icky tht we moved to the cafe where tanning beds were available. anyhow, we were basking in the sun when this waiter brot us a bottle of bacardi , said it was on the house.!!! we gasp . Den wasnt too happy . Mel was dumbfounded . I was overjoyed . lols . hahahaha. so funnies . Is wasnt too bad , like a concoction of lime and rum. yummy. The one whu objected to the whole idea ended up pouring into her glass of . i dunno bitter lime or something. Melissa drank with coke . none of us were drunk tho. 40% my ass, must be diluted . i'm not kidding . it took a shot of ginseng sakae for mel n i to giggle nuts yet we were entirely sober the whole day . but i like ginseng sakae, makes my cheek rosy.

Mer-lee-sah was jumping mad bout the free $150 of alchohol from the our-of-shape ang moh boss. i bet he'd look dangerous inna suit but -screams- he was in nothing but a yellow and black boxers !!! He looked like your friendly neighbout, who walks out in a robe every morning to collect the paper. haha. aye. read mel's blog for more. she has the details. suffice to ssay, i want him to be my sugadaddy. banana . step aside. lolol

The whole time, i was thinking how Denise changed so much. not her character..well maybe but. her attitude towards things. now she's all Mandarin and Zara and Dior . dont get me wrong, its not a bad thing : ) but the change is hella drastic but she stays grounded. still the same ol crazy hype scary womenthing. i know there's alot that i dont know about her.oh well. i think the three of us are scary in our own sense. i've seen both of em pissed of and i'm sure they've seen mine. after so long , i'm still afraid. they make me wanna wee in my pants. haha
{ 11:39 PM }

" You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you. "

how true.

man. if only everyday was as fun as t0day.

i laughed alot. but i always laugh. but i hadta control. dont want them thinkin i'm some mad woman but with i was with sha, i'd laugh like so much ! haha. i miss hip hop guy . and mr sexy-bald guy .
{ 10:52 PM }

i'm . just . so . enraged!!!!!

by the stupid thing. that bloody thing. and no its not my period u bunchuv assholes
why do all of you talk the same? speak the same? think the same? like a replica of the same person.

I H A T E I T I HATE Y OU
NO. hate is an understatement.

i really really sincerely wish tht i never met you.

:(

Her heart's a bloodstained egg
we didnt handle with care
Its broken and bleeding
And we can never repair.


i love marilyn.
{ 12:28 AM }

strange. queer. uncanny . was my day.

I got jumped by stevenlim( the stripper guy from Sg idol) in the middle of marriot. He insisted on plucking my brows. i gave in cuss i cudn't stand him prancing around like some gay fuck . looked nice. but upon further inspection, its by far the lousiest service ever . for 10 fucking dollars. i think he shud step up his service.

before that. i had a shop owner mistake me for someone who was getting married. why? cos lien mentioned about ms chua's wedding. stupid. go dig his ears la. he had a bloody girl in the chaging room. and she had to get out cos i wanted to try a shirt on. after we left. she went back in. like some illegal immigrant. . he looked gay. but above average. but he's cheena. but he's cute. gay cute. -wink-

At mac, our eavesdropping skills were put to the test . apparently, this guy was tryna push some goods or business. juding from the fact that he held his business proposal at mac, u can guess the standard of his bullshit. but i commend him for his chinese. very fluent. substance? none . he goes like " must understand. thn can accept. and when u do, u will believe ''. -rolls eyes- like duhz? its all common sense isnt it. silly ppl.


i wass rotting in the interchange when i noticed how evidently fuct ppl's lives are? -shrug- i see ladies in their mid-forties horribly out of fashion . but thats not the point. they weren't smiling. they were ... gloomy. everyone was gloomy. most of em had takaways in hand. i figured it was for their family. thn there were the after-work-dads. or fugly bachelors. sticky, fat, sweaty..jaded. do they even have a brighter side of life?? everyone looked tired , worn out and sad. siGhh. i rmb her face, so..lifeless. hais. and no, i didnt think of how lucky i was . instead i questioned myself why's the world so fuct. . silly i know. childish thot. i know. bah. whaTever. i wonder..happy people. sunshine people. do they think of such things? or do they block em out. thats why they're so jovial. -shrug -

i dont feel very good.
i hope i can sleep tonight.


Margery's wingspan's all feathers and coke cans, and TV dinners
and letters she won't send, and
Every race night is shot through with sunlight
Trying to hit the big one one last time tonight for
Drunken fathers and stupid mothers and
Boys who can't tell one girl from another
So she takes her pills
Careful and round
One of these days she's gonna throw the whole bottle down
{ 10:18 PM }

thats right babeh..i'm going crazy..damn right i am. Everytime my mom mentions about the holidays , i think of the pile of exam papers in my bag . i freaked out . my brain screamed in alarm but i just remained silent . unaware that mere thot wud trigger my tear gland. . i'm thankful for the naso-lachrymal duct. if my mom saw me tearing she'd give me a harsh prep talk on stress management.

so i went up to my room and blasted my mp3. but the damn Energizer failed me. bye bye SCREAMOS . i espescially love digital bath by deftones. nothing can be more soothing . i never thot i'd do sucha thing but i dug out this techno CD and yea . listened to it . hahahaha.. surprisinglY, my productivity was maintained! 2 down. just 10 more sets to go. oh. that excludes the stack of bio papers and math 'revisions' and english. with sec 3 revision on top. hoW exciting .

anyways. things really got going when i was reading up on war on pacific and eric's blog at the same time. one para of each in tendon. mhuahahaha.


i promised shA i'd post this ;

i think that beer
looks like crysanthenum tea
which reminds me of pea .
{ 11:16 PM }

my mom once said, if you wished for something long enough, your wish would come true. *blurts* HE ASKED ME OUT! but i declined. okay..i guess..this is the part where u gasp and go " wtF were u thinking?!" . i was thinking. i did a hell lot of thinking. a beeeeg part of me wanted to sae yes but thn it'd be for all the wrong reasons. lesson learnt ; when wishing for something, be specific. be VERY VERY VERY VERY PENULTIMATELY Specific. -frown- sighhs..cheryl has a tendancy to pass up beeg opportunities like this.

and no one is to get D500 before i d0! -sulk-



that aside. lets talk about mr. i'm-so-macho-i-look-like-a-girl; indigenous to the decaying wasteland that thrives within the bleak entity. To strangers, he appears as intimidating or even attractive *grimaces* but only up to the point before he opens his mouth and subconsciously degrades himself. but ahh, somehow many people think otherwise. i just dont get it. sO what if he's been thru more? it should have made him mature . From the things he talks and comments? i find him downright immature and odious. oops. :) i've nv seen anyone speek so arrogantly about his 'macho' activities..like its cool or something.


" you cant care for everything and stay sane. you cant not care for anything and stay human either"
{ 11:20 AM }

presently..my way of life is beyond horrid. i sleep late. wake early. get thru klass with eyes half closed , and teh only way i stay awake is by staring into space puntuated by routine suga intakes. arggghhhhhhhh. . thn i return home only to rot in front of the television , which i absolutely adore since its smth i've not done in eons. :D so yea. its fun. can u believe i still have pieces of chi worksheets lying on my desk ?? i've not even made any effort in filing my exam papers. slob. blob. dormant as ever. worn out..yet able to squeeze some energy for e shopping spree ytd. nyahaha..

i didnt buy much. just this long necklace with pink crystals. dont ask me how much ; u know me. i never know the price. swarovski crystals she says. hah. abit skeptical. maybe cause i lack the knowledge of sieving good crystals from bad. no. i forgot. li ting got purple.. i got pink. :) wanted bloody red..but it'll be limited to so few outifts. besides, buying 2 identical necklaces wasnt worth it. but the red's supah gothy. with red hair and black and all. sad. i want. got myself this body shop mist thingy...some brazillian nut thingy. smells like sweeet caramel. . feel like lickin it up each time i use it. rofl.

you know, i feel like that girl Sha mentioned . going crazy..still nt getting there. arggghhhhh.


Hey
Talk to me
Don't play me with your silence
{ 11:23 PM }

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