Saturday, October 24, 2009
sigh.
{ 9:34 AM }
Friday, October 23, 2009
But i'm having more torturous nights.
{ 11:54 AM }
This just proves. That there's no point. In trying to be who i'm not.
{ 9:40 AM }
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I feel weird. Like queezy..anxious..and slightly happy. Its odd because i have no reason to be nervous or happy. Its just another normal night, another normal night with a shitload of shit to do.
{ 8:17 AM }
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
When you hurt i hurt. When you hurt i hurt. When both of you hurt i hurt double. I feel slightly at ease now that i more or less have an idea what my IR essay is gon be about.
its 2.22 and im mooven to bloody beetroots. haha! \m/
I miss my boy.
{ 11:20 AM }
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wow i'm so proud of myself. I survived an 8am-12am day without napping or feeling excruciatingly fatigued! i guess i'm tired. I hope b's okay. my right eye twitched. It signals impending bad luck so0o0..anything but him..anybody but him.
Seeing janice tmr. EGGCITED! Am forgoing clubbing for her. chilzzz. Its not right partying with the wrong crowd. u're having fun but not fun. I prefer to stick to my own friends. people that i'm familar with. They've got my back and i dont feel a need to be medicated.
Talked to drey drey on the phone just now. Miss her voice. Cunt wait for her to come back. It sucks to see her like that. to see my friend hurting and knowing i cant do anything. I dont know what to do. I want it to stop and while its obvious what she ought to do.. u can never say fo sho. I'm an pessimist so..i tend to give up easily. but sometimes, sometimes, when u persist long enough..things will work out. shrugs. i've seen miracles happen. But no. not me. i believe in doing whats best for the self. because the self is most important.
{ 8:59 AM }
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Ok. Ive decided ( more or less). I'm gonna shop. I'm gonna put all the idle time i have on the weekend to shop and stay the fuck away from my phone so i wont annoy my friends. this is getting out of hand. Depressing!
Groans. Its been barely a week and i'm DYING. faster come back leah.
{ 6:48 AM }
Monday, October 12, 2009
omgomgomgomgomgnotenufftimenotimenotimenotimenotime.
{ 10:14 AM }
Sunday, October 11, 2009
This is so stupid. The boy goes to away and we end up wasting expensive text messages on arguments. hilarious. really. Tsk tsk. just can let things go. I dont get it. So what if you've made your point. What satisfaction do u get in repeating the same thing over and over again. so what if " i fucked up"? Lol. i fucked up thn i fucked up la. so are you gonna do ANYTHING about it? other than yakking. because if not then STFU. sometimes you make me wanna beat you to the ground and kick your face so that you can just stop nagging. Geez, even my own mother doesnt nag that much. rofl.
Argh. damn irritated. Ok. refuse to reply. Am not going to waste any more money on silly texts.
{ 7:12 AM }
Saturday, October 10, 2009
I dont understand myself. puzzling. I dont get it. D:
{ 11:06 PM }
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life. I DONT WANT DRAMA I DONT WANT DRAMA . FUCK.
{ 2:07 PM }
Monday, October 05, 2009
The amount of readings i have to do are insane. I still cant quite wrap my fingers around the fact that i spend most of my days reading. Some times, I spend the whole day reading. Its insane!!!
I just found out that I have a shitload to study for IR midterm. like SHITLOAD. on top of the eurp essay and the IR essay and the impending locke essay and the sw report.
fuck.{ 8:47 PM }
The thing is. I dont want to lose that memory ever. Because it is arguably the most memorable, bestest moments of the past. I dont want to forget.
{ 10:40 AM }
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Aye, its a phase. cant go back. no regrets. poignant. but it had to be done.
oh a lighter note, while reading the second treatise, i realised the word ' shew' kept popping up. thn after a while OH MY GOD. he meant ' show' ahahaha. he spells show and shew. and choose as chuse. so cute!!!
{ 9:08 AM }
its not the end of the world
I dont know if i should do this. I doubt i'll regret it. i'm prepared
{ 6:38 AM }
Covenant.
Friday, October 02, 2009
Happy one day and shitty the next this sucks so much. I just want to move on and concentrate on the good and not dwell on the bad. I dont like to dwell on the bad. Shit has happened, and mulling wont do any good so why'd you wanna mull . Why cant you just put it behind you and move forward. I know its not easy but that doesnt mean you shouldnt or ought not to make the effort to.
I dont like passiveness.I like decisive people.
and i hate making the journy with the knowledge that you're gonna be difficult later. At this point u'd say its like you can help it. well yes, i do believe that you can help it but if thats what you think thn so be it. be that as it may, it still sucks. sucks tt i have to sit and watch you engage in deep thought about god knows what. feeling utterly redundant.
{ 4:26 AM }
