This week has been good. Got my exams over and done with. Got to spend time with the boy. Got to hang out with audrey. Got to meet and have fun with the people i love. <3>not good
the boy looks so cute when he sleeps. like a baby. literally.
" you're a ball"
(:
ok. this is a happy post. hadnt had one in a long time. i'm really really happy tonight. feel blessed to be in the company of my friends. All i'm missing is you in bed with me. :o
slaps myself. ok bai.
{ 10:51 AM }
Monday, November 30, 2009
I feel lonely. I wonder how much I'll hurt when it ends. With my 'new found strength' and everything.
daiyum. another pimple D: rawwrrrrr
{ 11:08 AM }
love game?
Friday, November 27, 2009
Men. Only interested in the thrill of the chase. they bear their hearts out in the most noble, self-sacrificial manner to get u on by their side. they candy coat their actions and words with the sweetest mix . And when u finally give in. when they are finally sure that your heart belongs to them and no other they cant be bothered to give a shxt about u anymore. pffttt. so the thing is u gotta keep running . u gotta keep maintaining just enuff distance to make him want u but not to bore him away. s0o0o0o0o0o annoying! and tiring.
RAH
{ 2:06 AM }
Thursday, November 26, 2009
hi darius. u're prolly the only one who still reads this space. laughs. see u soon
Think i'm growing fat. exams make me fat. :(
{ 11:41 AM }
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
4am. i'm about to crash.
Had this interesting conversation with the boy last night. Made me ponder about how right is it to put your heart out. For me i like to be safe. I need to know that the guy is worth it before i offer him my palpitating organ. I need to know that if he ever does stab it or smash it. it'd be worth it. Is this wrong????
why is willy exposing himself when clearly, the risk of a heartbreak is...almost not a risk at all; its almost certain. I dont understand.
whats right?
For me, its the fear of my significant other harbouring some ingenuine motives behind his seemingly honest/truthful/best guy i cud ever ask for persona. Or maybe its the acknowledge that since i'm capable of suckering..he's equally capable..and i dont want to be the hare. i'm so paranoid about what others might think of me that i'm not willing to take a leap of faith. Is this..wrong? Is this detrimental ?
i doubt i'm the only one. Im pretty sure most people are this way. we all want the purest most infinite form of love but are scrambling, on our limbs, in pathetic desperation for a crack or glitch which will allows us to cheat the system..even if its just abit. thinking that maybe, maybe its possible us to reap more than what we sow. To get more in return than the meagre effort that we put in.
Even if u do succeed, i dont think it'll feel right. Everything just goes downhill from there.
{ 11:55 AM }
Saturday, November 21, 2009
ok i am damn irritated . I hate talking to people who do not know how to talk. If u got nothing better to say, just shut up. If u're feeling cranky, keep ur snide remarks to urself. If u're too insecure to say something stupid thn STFU as well. I dont appreciate people with no sense of humour, i dont appreciate boring conversations. if u wanna talk to me u damn well better be cordial. rrrr
{ 9:45 AM }
Friday, November 20, 2009
I keep writing myself into rust, its all around us. Get naked and get into bed right away. Get naked and get into my arms as fast as you can...
i layed below him. feeling absolutely vulnerable with nothing serpating us except the delicate nature-ordained barrier of the flesh. When he kissed me i couldnt help but smile as anthony green crooned in his unique fashion...
...she loves me so....SHE LOVES ME SOO-OHHOHHHH
{ 12:59 PM }
Neversweet*
There are bullet holes where compassion used to be
